Saturday, December 15, 2012

Op + post Op.

2nd December 2012.

Woke up early in the morning to have breakfast even though I only had like 2 hours of sleep. Took bus to 502 Market. Last meal before the op in the evening and I decide to have wanton noodles.

Went home, took a shower, washed my hair and got ready to proceed to the hospital.
After registering we just slack around in the room till it's time for op. Felt super nervous as it's my first op and I'll be under full GA.

The 4-5hours is damn suffering. I was super nervous and jumpy and the nurses gave me 2 false alarms. >.< Op was scheduled at 5pm but around early 3-ish one nurse came in to ask if I've had my socks and shower cup on.. I started jumping around until my husband asked the nurse isn't it too early since my op's at 5pm. Then she say at 5pm? oh. it's too early.. and she went out... Around a little while later another nurse came back to ask if I've taken the med to protect my gastric. She also came in too early..

Finally.. around 4plus another nurse came in and asked me to get ready for op and she went to push in another bed. Hubby helped me to put on the socks and shower cap.. I surrendered all my earrings and my spectacles. Vision's super blurry and my heart's super jumpy. Lay on the bed while the nurse pushed the bed. Hubby gave me a kiss before I went into the lift to proceed to the delivery suite.. Stopped by a waiting area while the nurse asked me some questions.. before she confirm the doctors are nearby and pushed me to the operating theater..

In the operating theater and I was still super nervous.. They had to draw some blood, poke in a needle at a side of my wrist as there wasn't much obvious veins for them to poke and even that vein they had a lot of issues with drawing blood.. After a long while of squeezing my arm) they finally manage to get the blood they need. After that they start the other operating stuffs. First thing and only thing I remember was a mask was placed over my face, they push it down while commenting that my face is too small and keep asking me to breathe deeply.. I kept breathing and breathing and was thinking when will they give me the GA... and when will the GA take effect.. and the next thing I knew, they were waking me up and said the op is over, and my little girl is well.

Super blur but I tried my best to stay awake because I really wanted to see my girl.. They pushed my bed to the room and I was shifted to my ward bed. They warned me of the pain I would feel each time they moved me and yes I felt pain but I was still super seh.. drifting in and out.. Then I saw Mike and my mum. Still feeling blur and weak, I kept asking to see baby. I wanted to know she is fine. I want to see her face. They told me her weight and that she's so loud that the whole floor can hear her.. After they push her in, they put her next to me for me to see her. Hubby took a photo for me and posted on facebook. I was still super seh but I managed a smile and kissed my little girl..

They got Winne back to the nursery so I could have more rest but I just couldn't sleep. I wanted her by my side and I was drifting in and out the whole night. Mike didn't sleep much cause he wanted to be with me the whole of Sunday night...

3rd December 2012
Monday morning and I was still on drips and drifting but I was drifting a lot less and starting to worry when the drip stops will the pain be super bad and if I will finally start to feel nausea.. I can't wait to see Winnie and also the doctor.. Doctor came in, took a look at my wound area and told me they will take the drip and urine bag thingy off and let me walk a tiny bit that day. They will also start giving me painkillers in pills form, letting me take soft diet and he'll see me the next day.

Monday floats by rather quickly even though I was in pain most of the time. Took some photos of Winnie and took a bit of nap in the evening after taking painkillers... I even managed to sleep a little at night! :) Meals were soup beehoon for 3 meals and by night time I was so hungry that I ate a few packs of biscuits at night. :p

4th December 2012
Tuesday is a fresher day for me. I was able to move around a lot more. Even though my wound hurt really bad in the morning, the rest of the day was really very much manageable except when hubby made me laugh. My wound hurts really bad when I laugh. :(

5th December 2012
Discharge day. Morning had a scare cause they were checking on Winnie's Jaundice levels, if it's too high she can't go home with me. :( The result came in as manageable level and she can be discharged with me. Super happy to go home cause I can finally be with my little one. :)

Then the horror starts.. 10x worse than pregnancy.. is call THE CONFINEMENT. >.<
I'm now almost halfway there and can't wait for it to be over!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Photos of my Cutie Pie. :D

Just some photos first.
Will update on the Op and Post-Op soon. :)

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Final pre-op appointment!

Just went for final appointment with Dr KK Lee on Thursday.
Winnie's growing well, estimate at 3.something kg, she has doubled her weight since the last time he told me she was 1.something.. That totally explains the sudden sprout of strechmarks!

My cutie pie has no more space inside the tummy. She's literally facing the wall of my uterus.. all cramped up inside.. Saw her move her mouth and she looks so adorable.. like complaining her mummy's such a kang chiong spider. Haha.

So doctor says we're ready. The tummy shape is right he says. Don't really know what he means but it's right means it's good right? So we're going in this Sunday!

Friends and relatives can come visit on Monday onwards but please don't bring anything.. cause we no car to bring home lah.. haha. We got a lot of chicken essence, fish essence, bird's nest, baby clothes in fact we have almost everything ready.. and our house no space.. :P So anyway, if you want to visit, do check out Mike or my facebook for ward details. :)


Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Week 37 - Final milestone (Stretchmarks!)

About 90% done with preparation I think. heh.

-Button sleeping attire bought (4piece almost 200. -.-) -> for me.

-Milk bottles, bottles steriliser, brush for bottles, nappy cream, nipple cream, breast pumps, sterilized cotton balls, Pacifier, nail clippers, water thermometer, nappies, leftover diapers, wet wipes, ru yi oil (both winnie's grannies bought 1 bottle each. lol), jin feng san, covers for mattress,  pillow, bolster, herbs, many many longans and red dates..

-Mike couldn't resist getting a cute toy to hang at the cot for Winnie's entertainment hahas.

I'm really very nervous about the operation and seeing Winnie for the first time. It's barely a week left!!

New issues every other week.. This week's issue is stretchmarks!
The look is bad, the itch is worse!!
So I asked my mum about it and apparently she doesn't have any!! 4 kids and she doesn't have any? Why life so unfair ah? Then Mike says it's because all 4 of us are premature babies, so she never carried us till full term plus the 4 of us are all so tiny! eh.. yah. that kinda explains it.. The four of us are born like a month early, the youngest one I think almost 2 months early? We missed the "put on weight" period. hahas.

Apparently the little ones grow most of their fats in the last bit.. so most of the time stretchmarks appears closer to the date of birth cause of the sudden increase in bulk inside... something like that. hahas. or if you're having twins.... :)

Monday, November 19, 2012

Week 36 - Feeling Low

Feeling kinda negative the past week, tearing at the slightest issue and had a full meltdown on Sunday. I've experienced this before and I know what is happening.

Was aware of postnatal depression but never thought it's possible to have depression during pregnancy. Did a search and found this article on quite helpful.

About 10% of pregnant women suffers from a period of depression during pregnancy.
As the symptoms varies from person to person, there's no fixed symptoms for depression. The article listed some of the more common symptoms that one may have if he/she is suffering from depression.

A. Inability to concentrate
B. Anxiety
C. Extreme irritability
D. Sleep problems
E. Extreme or unending fatigue
F. A desire to eat all the time or not wanting to eat at all
G. A sense that nothing feels enjoyable or fun any more
H. A persistent sadness
Symptoms D and E seems like a normal part of pregnancy.
I had all the above symptoms and I didn't know it. Well,  not until the meltdown on Sunday anyway.

This is what I felt in the past week.
Feels as if my husband doesn't care or understands me, and felt like he's always telling me off for something or another. Everything he says feels like he's using an angry and irritated tone on me, and all the things he does, it feels like he's not willing to do it but he's doing it just because I'm pregnant.

Feels like he's finding me very irritating and trying to get away from me. It really makes me feel very useless and angry at the same time. I teared almost every other day and couldn't find anyone to complain to. It's like who will believe me when I complain about a attentive husband being not attentive? It doesn't help when he's out all the time for his work, his friends, even when he's home he's always on the comp and phone, playing games or chatting with his friends. It just makes me feel so left out.

It's something that many people experienced without knowing they are experiencing it and it's even more difficult for people around them to understand what they are going through. Sometimes people used really negative terms or words, thinking that it will help them, like asking them to "snap out of it", "stop dwelling", "stop self-pitying" and stuffs like that.

Depression is not something you can just suddenly and immediately snap out of. It takes time for the person to try to get out of it. It's not a small paper cut that you can stop the blood from flowing with just a plaster. It's more like a bigger wound that needs care and concern to heal over a period of time, for some, it just takes a longer period.. The most important thing is for the person to accept that he/she is going through this phrase and opens to getting well. Well, at least it works for me. When I know I am going through it, I try to find ways to let out all the "bad thoughts".

I'm writing this entry because I want it to be a reminder to myself.
For my daughter, I will get myself out of this!

In other news..
Winnie's cot is here!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Week 35 - Shopping / Final preparations for the day

Finally packed the hospital bag though there's really nothing much inside. :( I believe I still need like 2 sets of comfy button sleepwear or something. Bah.. Need to ask my mother. She's more experienced in this. :P

Last weekend we finally bought the baby cot, will be delivered this coming weekend and once it's done up, our room will finally look a bit more "baby ready"!

We've also bought the baby bath tub, baby wash and the powder lotion.
Still have some items yet to purchase and I'm starting to feel a little stress out. :(
- Bath water thermometer.
- Wash cloth and towel for baby
- Cloth Diapers (Mummy says she will get it)

Bah. I don't know if we've missed out any essentials. There's just so many things to prepare and I'm such a scatterbrain. :(

We've folded Winnie's clothes and put them in a compartment in our wardrobe. Yet to clear out one of my plastic cupboards to put Winnie's stuffs inside. Got to clear it next week before Winnie's here. :D

Monday, November 5, 2012

Week 33/34 - Responds to sounds

This is the period where we get more responds from Winnie and her every action makes me feel like hugging her right away. :)

She's like a baby, waking up many times a day just to disturb me.
When I'm eating
When there's music
When her dad just come home from work and she hears his voice
When I'm bathing
When I'm going to sleep
When I'm waking up
When I'm seating on the low chair
When I'm in the toilet
Particularly when I'm conversing with other people (eg. my mum, my brothers, my friends)
or when I feel her kneecap or elbow sticking out and I touch it. She'll squirm a little.

There are times when she stretches out her legs or something and I feel discomfort and pain.. I'll tell her it's painful, she should not do that and she will slowly move her leg back. :) Of cause I know she doesn't really understand what I'm saying but it does makes me feel like she's responding to my voice. :)

This week, we got the used baby clothes from my MIL, these clothes are given by Mike's Aunt. Put everything into the washing machine to wash and they are all so adorable. I mean they are all so tiny!

Honestly I think we don't seem very excited or prepared. I've know friends who've already started to prepare so many baby stuffs and we barely have any baby stuffs at our house. :P No pram yet cause still can't make up our mind which one to get. No baby cot yet cause we're expecting the cot to come in when I'm at the hospital, but we've yet to order it till today. Oh. the only stuffs we got are detergent to wash baby clothes and baby body wash. :P

I did get some stuffs for confinement though. 7 weeks worth of disposable underwear, a few nursing clothes and some nursing bras. :)

Mike's going to be very busy at work and I'll need to find time to go shopping with my mum for other stuffs. She's leaving her job in about 2-3weeks to prepare for my confinement. Her first grandchild and even though she doesn't show it she's actually quite excited. :P Afterall she have had 4 kids so she have enough experience to stay so calm. :P

Packing the hospital bag tomorrow when the mummy bag comes in. Not sure what to bring exactly also. bah..